A Prison of Oneself
2007 Fractured Vision Media
A Prison of Oneself is a dense collection of work recorded over the course of four years. Dark and crushing. Ambient textures interlaced with swelling, almost violent extremes. Edgy soundscapes filled with hope, despair, and a persistent, uneasy current reflective of the mind’s inner hell.
- breathe
- condemnation
- not unhopeful
- dissolution
- so crushed
- crimson futility
- a shelter of yesterdays
- amoung the wreckage
- vacant
- the well
- hope of escape
- a torn visage
breathe
lost within this moment of weakness
hopelessness surrounding me
the fruits of my despair
are overwhelming me
buried within my recollection
i cannot see anything
past this dread visage i fear
this reflection staring into me
to look away is salvation
but i’ll never look away
condemnation
the sun sears unmercifully
glaring at my shattered form
and no heavens clouds to protect me
shield me from the burning rays
with their delirious touch
not unhopeful
show me truth
beyond these darkened eyes
reveal to me
that which has escaped me
clear for me
the upward path
i don’t want to burn
so crushed
you dominate me completely
here suffocating
beneath your influence
quick little breathes
escape me
this is all so empty
and I am so crushed
a shelter of yesterdays
it won’t be long till this fear becomes too great
it won’t be long till i break down
i’ve seen girls fill wells with their tears
but to draw from this well means death
vacant
in all the places I reside
I leave a little piece behind
and all the little hearts I take
the vacant souls incinerate
this is a vacant space
hope of escape
you are so weak
you will never overcome your demons
pathetic and broken
with a mind clouded with confusion
it is so easy to make you fall
tell yourself that it won’t happen again
that you are stronger now
that you will never have a hand in sin again
tell yourself all these things
and I will reveal just how weak you truly are
and that there was never any hope of escape
