August
2000 Fractured Vision Media
Primarily dealing with issues of loss and abandonment, August remains a collection of work that is inescapably raw and unwavering in discourse.
- taken
- hairline fracture
- interlude
- tired child
- lamenting sky
- the waves
- gripping
- an august night
hairline fracture
i'm in prison
a cell- dark and lonely
i can feel the cold walls and the colder floor
against my feet [bare and blue]
no matter how long or how hard i search these walls,
i'm never able to find a door
even a crack would give me relief
a crack that i could squeeze into and believe that i could escape
a hairline fracture filled with possibilities
the rift that permits me to bring myself up and out of this nightmare
God, crack these walls
even if it means killing me
because i can't live like this anymore
tired child
sometimes i find myself wishing i had died as a child
to never know the horrors that cling to me with such intimacy
i shouldn't entertain such thoughts
i should turn my attention to other things
i'm a tired child
because I've lived past my time...
lamenting sky
this sky
now ignores me
like so many others
this star
it abhors me
like so many i've known
and i can't even begin
to try and make things better
and i can't even begin
to make right all that's wrong
in my life
only give me a real fighting chance
and i'll bring back
the strength- the vitality i once had
back when your eyes made me a king
and my kingdom resides behind
those cold blue eyes
locked away… forever locked away
locked away… forever locked away
and i can't even begin
to try and make things better
and i can't even begin
to make right all that's wrong
in my life
i haven't anything left for you dear
